Serenelli's Cancer Experience diary...
31 May 2004 Back to index
31 May : I have been away from writing my diary for a good couple of months. I had reached the point where I did not want to talk anymore about my situation. I left for Italy with the intention of forgetting it all. I was successful for quite a few weeks... then I started having problems when my bowel started coming out. The inner walls of the colon were coming out through the stoma. A good 2/3 inches. I don't have a precise answer why it happened but can only guess that a combination of over exercise and constipation did it. On my return to PA, at the end of the first week of May, I needed Dr. Friesen intervention to stitch it back in. Now 3 weeks later... the bowel is out again and I need new work on it. Since this problem of the bowel I have been feeling depressed and with the feeling of loss of freedom. I have now to confront limitations. I am not good at it. I have been laying low for 3 weeks with only a 20 min walk on the treadmill in the morning. This was done to let the bowel adjust. It did not happen and now I have to start it all over again. Not having my bowel working normally is taking so much of my daily attention. I am now on laxatives every night... and hoping that they will work. My energy level is down. I nap a lot during the day. I can't sleep properly at night. I have to pee every hour or so... my body aches all over from too much laying down. I miss my running... and I am looking forward to have this bowel fixed again. I had to give in more... and let workers come into the house to finish the new living room. It is so hard for me to delegate something that has always been my pleasure, "building, creating"... but I don't have the energy or the drive right now. But I know that I want to see it finished. The bad weather is really affecting me. I feel really lousy when we are in low pressure (rain). I am a sun person !!! I need high pressure to feel at my best. Eileen is holding on... and is there for me. She has started doing a lot of errands out of the house on her own... I so often now don't feel like moving or need to lay down and rest. I have plenty of catch up to update this Website. My morning weight is 68 kg. |
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